Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Alright!

After much deliberation ("should I go? *browses through flickr photos* "Oh, hell ya!") I am officially posting my decision to attend BurningMan this year, so that if I don't end up going you can make me feel guilty constantly and remind me over and over that I lack commitment, backbone, allegiance etc, as that is something I really can't handle X-)

Luckily it's only 3 hours drive from the likes of Sacramento (the west coast is good to me) so it shouldn't be hard getting out there. This will be my first year so I don't quite know what to expect, except visualizations as seen through the eyes of someone on acid... but not on acid. They say it's one of those things you've got to see to understand. So far I know my bro and Miss Livinginaworld will be going, with my little niece of course, and if things go as planned I get to attend my very first wedding (I'm not kidding). Though it will be estilo-burningman it will be a wedding, of sorts, none the less! So it's all very very ESSITING!!!

So i'm thinking about body paint, but can that stuff really stay on in 107 degree weather? I'll make a way.

So who's a coming? You know you've got to... ask me, I'll convince you!

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

well hello... there

Oh blog, why dost thou require my soul be delivered to thee everytime in order to start some action!!?? I dunno, sometimes it's so hard to write anything unless it has some kind of profound meaning or earth shattering wisdom attached to it. There are plenty of bloggers who can do the whole "blogging about their day humm drumm"... thing. I just can't. I like my writing to... hmmm... frolic! It needs energy and life, a hint of profundity or it's not worth putting... pencil to paper (bleh, I hate it when those little phrases don't work anymore) I don't want to lose all interest in my blog or delete it. I like my blog and I like posting! Just... gets... stuck. Ah well, it needent be this way I suppose, I have the power!! Going to make me some nice coffeeeeee and I'll be right back to see how this cookie crumbles.

Soooooooooooooo goooooooooooood! Foamy, rich, and so aromatic. Man, I love that stuff. It makes me smile and I think only happy thoughts. That would be my drug of choice and I don't care what ANYONE has to say about that, ahem you know who you are! So, if you don't already know, this awesomely-cool-totally-all-that-is-rad friend of mine did the nicest thing anyone could do for me and got me a little espresso maker (I was whining on myspace and said someone should get me one to make me happy and he did even though I was totally kidding!!! wooot!) NOW I can enjoy a nice cuppa whenever I please! yay! Definitely been the highlight of the last 2 weeks or so. Thank yoooooou! You da bestest!

EDITED -- reading over this again I didn't like the sound of my last paragraph after all. Too much of an unnecessary negative twist. This leaves off far better. :)

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Sweet Tears

Sunshine through the raindrops falling.
Smiling though your heart's been crying.
Sunlight beaming through the shadows of the tears of your soul.
Through tempest winds and winter storms.
Still stained with tears bloody and scarred.
Your trudging on to the sun.
Whispering softly, "It's all done."

The soul would have no rainbow had no tears filled your eyes.
Falling raindrops colour the skies.
The diamonds of a broken heart are tears crystallised.
And sunlight sparkles in those teary eyes.

As storm clouds part and darkness fades.
Sunlight springs new life again.
Little flowers after the rain tell of beauty through the pain.

- David Angelo

You should listen to that song.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

fin

One week in Mexico came and went. I spent about 4 years there so it's like home to me in many ways and even though I've been away for some time going back was as if no time at all had passed... at all. I was on a bit of an emotional roller coaster the first day and a half. Overwhelmed, happy, surprised, excited, relieved, sad, angry, drunk - hehe, no not quite. (listing off my emotions - hey I'm a pisces we're well acquainted - the order was accidental but is somewhat ironic too) Ask Mig and Angie, I was shaking when they came to get me from the airport and then it was tears pretty much on demand if too much went on. Kinda weird, never had that before. First few days I hung out in Tepoztotlan with the Luna's and 60 something other people (aha, the culprit!). Tacos, beer, cards, walks, mexican market, mailbu, going through old pictures, old memories.

This was somewhat of a significant visit for Migs and I. I haven't seen him since before this blog was created and we didn't have that closure, or just the forgiving and forgetting. I left almost all my stuff in Mexico and he held onto it for me, bless his soul that he didn't burn it all :P Danny and Luchi had given us two bottles of wine from their trip to Chile a few years back and we said we'd drink it on a special occasion. This visit was that occasion. Sitting on the floor, light sprinkling rain outside, a song by Snow Patrol came on - Run - and the two bottles of wine (hey they were tiny "two glass" bottles!) needed to be opened to toast to life, love and our future... as friends. We forgave, we cried, took turns toasting with each sip till it was done. It was sweet and sad, so many flashbacks of our adventures, the good times, the bad times... now only encased in our memories. The realization of something that once was being no more is sad, but one can't look in remorse over "if I only had". We'll keep pressing on to our futures and the new horizons before us. Mig, I'm thankful I still have you as a friend. I hope you find the best cake recipe ;)

Thursday, was off to the Zocalo for LUCHA LIBRE MASKS!!! (We're wearing them to the opening of Nacho Libre, so stay tuned) Had some AMAZING tacos, soaked in some Mexico City pollution and then off to Tasquena by metro to catch the bus to Cuernavaca. Even with the traffic it was a lovely drive. I love that particular drive, so picturesque and peaceful - tho I highly recommend taking the old road vs the highway. Arrived that evening at the breathtakingly beautiful property that is home to my dearest friends, Danny and Luchi (+ more) Relaxing in the pool, drinking on the roof, taking advantange of every photo op possible, searching for tacos (not the luckiest trio are we), cutting hair, being followed home by kittens, world cup, frapuccinos, spankings (j/k) and much more. I had so much fun and so much talking!!!! Felt nice, I don't get to have those long conversations about life - too busy I guess. I love you guys! Thanks for being you, for being there, for not forsaking me :)

light up, light up

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Monday, June 12, 2006

My last day in Mexico










It's been one hell of a week. Seems like it's been way longer than that. They say time flies when you're having fun but I think so much happened in such a short space of time, every moment was accounted for. Sigh. Miss you all already. Here are some pics from my last day.

Adios




hasta la proxima

Monday, June 05, 2006

4am

no use teasing my body into thinking it will be getting any sleep.



it makes me nervous to travel having not spoken to anyone I am going to be staying with in 2 days.



oh well, as long as there are churros close by I am sure I will be fine.



wish me well on my flight....... you never can be too sure.

Adieu

Sunday, June 04, 2006

This time tomorrow...

I'll be sipping margaritas, laying by the pool (with a local band of HOT Mariachis keeping me entertained) in the heart of Mexico...


ehehhee



Ok so not entirely accurate.

Number one, no such thing as hot Mariachis. Number two I'm really craving Pina Coladas and I'm not sure if the pool has yet been filled with water.

Other than that I have spoken only the truth.

SALUD!


Fear not! Pictures WILL follow.

just sumfing to see

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

HEY!

DUDE!

Couldja be online? I gots to talk to ya!

nyar har

Sunday, May 28, 2006

ecccchhhh

some emotional outbursting there. I only apologize if you don't have a clue.




I just wish things were a less complicated.

Oh well.




Off to push spaghetti.



8 days

ecccchhhh

some emotional outbursting there. I only apologize if you don't have a clue.




I just wish things were a less complicated.

Oh well.




Off to push spaghetti.



8 days

Saturday, May 27, 2006

why...

can't I get it straight? why can't I choose not to hurt you? why must I always instigate the hurt?

so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused
so confused

ps. You know you'll be better off.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Dunn dun dun dunnnnnnnnn...

I forgot to mention: I AM OFF TO MEXICO (for a week)!!! *bounces around the room*

I'm so excited as it's been too long and I am long over due. Close to a year and a half ago I was living a different life in the heart of Mexico. Not sure how it's going to be, but I have a feeling I will be very torn between leaving there again and wanting to stay. Mexico holds many memories close to my heart, a lot of happiness and wonderful times. I had a rough last 6 months there and pretty much decided I must not be cut out for that life. Among many things life seemed to become much more complicated, I felt my lovely simple life was slipping away. It wasn't that I had lost faith in what I was doing there, I had lost faith in myself in doing the things that were seeming to be required of me, or expected of me. One day in October I found myself driving the 3 day journey to Denver, CO where I was to be for a month visiting family and return....... I never returned.

I find myself today, in the throws of being twenty-something, questioning and trying to understand. Wanting to try, yet already feeling like a failure. Silent scream, virtual reality, bitter sweet, calculated spontaneity, calm storm, mildly psychotic, rebel without a cause... Life lived in an oxymoron!

Much I want to see, much I fear to know. Will the haunting always be?

Ah, what the hell! Life... gimme yer best shot!!

WOW!

That was a GREAT cup of coffee! After weeks of buying different versions of the same crap I have finally chosen well! I was on a "try new tastes" tangent and was seriously considering the fact that I just might not like coffee anymore.

I was wrong.

mmmmmhmmmmm

NOTHING compares to unadulterated coffee.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Emmachella Experience Part 1

It actually started last year in October with frantic searching for hotels! This might give you an idea as to how popular this festival is for a few of the passionate ones. 7 months prior to the event (likely longer) Indio, where the polo fields are situated, had not a single room available and the next closest town, Palm Springs (30minutes drive) was sold out of anything affordable (anything less than $100 a night). Somehow by crazy chance someone called to say they found out from someone else that there was now ONE last room at the Motel 6 in Indio. We jumped on the phone, nabbed the last of the last and heaved a sigh of relief... for now.

The months came and went, the Coachella movie played at a local cinema, one night we stayed up most of the night waiting - having succumbed, along with many more, to a rumour that the lineup would be announced that night/morning... it wasn't. Eventually it was and as yells were heard, phonecalls made, the lineup was tweaked, modified, great bands added, not so great ones too, harddrives and ipods were filled with the sounds of what was to be heard on the fateful weekend that is April 29th and 30th from now till many many years from now. *Starts a wave*

The birth of the Coachella Crew was quite unintentional. It all started with me posting inceasant posts on myspace about the time getting closer and closer. One day out of the blue Marcus messaged me about if I had space for one more... which in the end turned out to be a dandy crew of 8 (although there were other's on the outskirts who we knew but were doing there own thang, like Xtina and my bro) Anyway, with this growing as if from nowhere I thought maybe we should double check our reservation at the hotel juuuuuuust in case. Sure enough they "lost" our reservation!! (we were also lacking in the brains dept. and lost our confirmation number!) So, with a month or so to go we started to scramble for any leads we could come across for available rooms. Nothing, then..... nothing, and more nothing. Our desperation and distress peeked till all of a sudden we came across some obscure add by some guy who said that he wouldn't be able to make it out this year like he'd and was putting up his reservation (Motel 6, Palm SPrings) on ebay. We SO JUMPED and were going at it neck and neck for a good part of the afternoon with this other dude who seemed equally as desperate. The bidding kept rising higher, but we determined not to give in and finally when it reached around $80 the dude dopped off. YES! We were back in the saddle and nothing could stop us now!... shockingly nothing went wrong from there on and it was smooth sailing all the way. w00t!

Friday morning we go to pick up our rental at Ol' Reliable Enterprise Rentals who used to serve me well and did so yet again. We zipped over to The Awesome's pad, played with her too many and too fat kitties (they seem to live in scratcher post heaven, her living room's full of em!) I might add that Nancy was FORCED against her will to come, but I think she came around in the end... I mean HELL YA she had a great time!!

Next, a short stop at Target for last minute essentials. An iTrip to keep us thoroughly entertained, tanning lotion to hide the luminous legs, disposable camera etc etc ZOOOOOOOOOOM... off to Stockton.

OH! YEAH! I haven't yet mentioned this part! Jason had a great idea to invite some random girl off of myspace who not only needed a ride down but would also help with expenses. Hmmmmmm...needless to say, even after he glorified this task he had performed all on his own - I gave him a hard time and was highly suspicious... but that all faded when she came bounding towards the car and turned out to be totally rad. Gemma is her name (asi como He-ma), shes Mexican, but grew up here most of her life. Totally cool lady! YAY! Sorry Gemma!!! And sorry Jason for doubting your excellent judgement!!

Ventura Highway and Today's Songunoficially became the songs that marked our journey. Sorta like we were inadvertantly using them to set the 'nostalgia' for the "aftermath" (which is now) - you know life going on as usual, but knowing whenever we hear them we'll remember an amazing roadtrip. 7 hours of road and country to cover, it was a very pleasant drive... for one we made it in record time... HEHEHEHEHE. Ok, I know I am somewhat of a fearless and crazy driver (I'm not mean MEAN! just making sure I get the right of way, which is easy when you're a girl :D) I really am thinking about my poor passengers baking on the back seat, for real!! I just like to get from A to B... as soon as possible. More about that later.

Well, we arrived in Palm Springs safe and sound (speeding ticketless), went in search of grubb, met up with the Marcus, Miriam and Christina checked into our hotel, chit chatted over some beers and passed the fudge out.

Dreaming of Day 1....

Friday, April 28, 2006

BIRTHDAAAAAAAY!

There is a special lady who is having her special day...
























but not today!

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Monday, April 17, 2006

you went offline...

...sniff! We didn't get to finish! I don;t even know if you're happy! Sniff sniff! Talking to you just now brought so many memories crashing back to me, like some great tidal wave. I miss you so very much. Gee, you're all grown up now too - though I bet so very much the same as I remember you. You've been one of the dearest people in my life, I'm sorry we've been out of touch, I promise to change that. Man, you brought out all my smiles and all my silliness - I've been so out of practice and am yet to find someone to replace you. Nobody seems to want to "race" on a wormy in the pool with me around here, much less dare me to go up to random strangers and start a conversation (and act shocked when I do it), I am yet to find someone here to dance bizarre steps to strange songs (they just give me funny looks) or someone who'll run through the streets looking for me when I take off in tears and then sit on the dusty steps with me hearing out my woes. So many memories, you and me - the daredevil team... I bet everyone wanted to be us... hahaahhaha... no, probably not. But that's ok, we were happy. People like you are rare as rubies and I am happy and honoured to know you!

This one's for you chica... oh yeah, those are probably the ACTUAL steps :)