in about 40 minutes I will be stepping out the door and driving off into the sunset... 'cept the weather is foul and it's freezing out so I might possibly be driving off into plain fog! But hey, somewhere in that fog lies the Denver Intl. Airport and if we find it, that's where I am going! Yes boys and girls, I have been invited to attend a great music festival in Coachella, CA ( www.coachella.com ) and get this... I didn't even have to sleep with the guy!! :D - hmmm I'm thinking maybe there's a hint of bitterness somewhere in that... heee heee.
So anyway, I will be back in about a week and HOPEFULLY have a string of pics and interesting blogging to accompany them. I'm a little nervous, with good reason, but I think all in all it will be a blast.
Fare thee well
The ship is sailing and the wind blows free
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Altea is turning into a little person!!
awww
She once was just a little glob of cuteness, now she is indeed becoming a tiny human being!
I think she has my legs ;)
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Ahoy there, me hearties!
arrrrrr! can't believe it! we only have ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTY DAYS left till International Talk Like a Pirate Day!! Ok all, together now... arrrrrrr!
...sigh...
it's hard to blog when days seem to morph into being one and the same. that reason, and also that I've been busier, have kept me "finger tied" just when I had a spare moment. the damn machine does have this horribly addictive pull to it, but more often than not I find myself getting lost (which is fine) and wasting time (not so fine) - so i've been taking active steps to find other means of getting lost in my own little world without the aid of highspeed internet and I feel better! still need more ideas and will power!
if I'm gone for a bit that's ok! I will be back!
...sigh...
it's hard to blog when days seem to morph into being one and the same. that reason, and also that I've been busier, have kept me "finger tied" just when I had a spare moment. the damn machine does have this horribly addictive pull to it, but more often than not I find myself getting lost (which is fine) and wasting time (not so fine) - so i've been taking active steps to find other means of getting lost in my own little world without the aid of highspeed internet and I feel better! still need more ideas and will power!
if I'm gone for a bit that's ok! I will be back!
Thursday, April 14, 2005
...sigh...
feels like a lazy summer day today. birds are singing, sun is shining, cool breeze blowing... now I just need me a wind-chime, a rocking chair, cold beer and some good company.
Roll out those lazy, hazy, crazy days of summer
Those days of soda and pretzels and beer (low-carb of course :P)
Roll out those lazy, hazy, crazy days of summer
You'll wish that summer could always be here
today I miss EVERYONE!
Roll out those lazy, hazy, crazy days of summer
Those days of soda and pretzels and beer (low-carb of course :P)
Roll out those lazy, hazy, crazy days of summer
You'll wish that summer could always be here
today I miss EVERYONE!
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
humm di dumm
WHAT TREE DID YOU FALL FROM?
Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool and somewhat accurate, also in line with Celtic astrology.
Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) -Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 -Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree
YOUR TREE
( in alphabetical order)
Apple Tree (the Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.
Ash Tree (the Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.
Beech Tree (the Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).
Birch Tree (the inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant,friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.
Cedar Tree (the Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.
Chestnut Tree (the Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.
Cypress Tree (the Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.
Elm Tree (the Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey,honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor,practical.
Fig Tree (the Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, a social butterfly, great sense of humor, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, has artistic talent and great intelligence.
Fir tree (the Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress poorly, loves anything beautiful, can become depressed at times, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them as well as helping strangers, rather modest, hard worker, talented, unselfish, few sexual relationships, many friends, doesn't want foes, very reliable.
Hazelnut Tree (the Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding , knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.
Hornbeam Tree (the Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.
Lime Tree (the Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.
Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.
Oak Tree (the Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.
Olive Tree (the Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.
Pine Tree (the Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self-esteem, needs affection and reassurance.
Poplar Tree (the Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.
Rowan Tree (the Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.
Walnut Tree (the Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
Weeping Willow (the Melancholy) - likes to be stress-free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.
Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool and somewhat accurate, also in line with Celtic astrology.
Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) -Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 -Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree
YOUR TREE
( in alphabetical order)
Apple Tree (the Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.
Ash Tree (the Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.
Beech Tree (the Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).
Birch Tree (the inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant,friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.
Cedar Tree (the Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.
Chestnut Tree (the Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.
Cypress Tree (the Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.
Elm Tree (the Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey,honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor,practical.
Fig Tree (the Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, a social butterfly, great sense of humor, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, has artistic talent and great intelligence.
Fir tree (the Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress poorly, loves anything beautiful, can become depressed at times, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them as well as helping strangers, rather modest, hard worker, talented, unselfish, few sexual relationships, many friends, doesn't want foes, very reliable.
Hazelnut Tree (the Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding , knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.
Hornbeam Tree (the Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.
Lime Tree (the Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.
Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.
Oak Tree (the Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.
Olive Tree (the Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.
Pine Tree (the Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self-esteem, needs affection and reassurance.
Poplar Tree (the Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.
Rowan Tree (the Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.
Walnut Tree (the Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
Weeping Willow (the Melancholy) - likes to be stress-free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
wicked winter
Today we got ourselves nicely snowed in, how ironic! Yesterday it was a sizzling 65 degrees (sizzling as we can expect in April that is - though I actually did slightly burn whilst I was romping around in next to nothing summer attire, soaking up the sun. Ok I'm lying there. My left ARM showed a hint of pinkness as I spent a good chunk of the day driving all around Denver, but my point is... well you're smart enough I'm sure)
Snow is quite the deceiver! It looks all pretty outside the window, from the comfort of a centrally heated town house, but boy oh boy I almost lost my nose to frost bite as I ventured out to dutifully capture quite possibly the last of the winter whiteness on my little digi-cam. The poor thing! Even in the amount of time it takes to take a picture, a layer of snow would gather on top and I'd have to keep blowing it off. I hope my camera won't hold a grudge, I've heard tales of them doing so, but I couldn't resist. I've learned something about myself from this day, I hate hate hate extreme weather! My feet were cold, my nose was cold, my ears were cold, my feet were cold, my my tail was cold (yeeeaaah ok, taking quotes from "101 Dalmations" = a little too much time spent with kiddos, I'm thinking) I don't like being cold and have decided that wherever my home ends up being, it will NOT be in a "wonderous wintry land" as that's an entirely over-rated description in my opinion. I guess I got spoiled having grown up in PERFECT CLIMATE HARARE where it's never too hot, and never too cold. You may need a light sweater in the winter and you'll never use air conditioning in the summer. How pleasant. But yes, as pleasant as it was Zimbabwe did spoil me and spoil me rotten:
1. grew up with servants: never had to clean my room, do the dishes, my laundry, the result: a very undomesticated specimen
2. drugs and alcohol readily available and cheap from a young age, the result: inability to not overspend at a bar :)
3. perfect climate, the result: lack of ability (desire more like) to adapt to imperfect climates.
4. a country with (at the time) little to no crime - the result: I'm possibly a little too overconfident, fearless and daring.
but it's aaaaaaaaall I'm gonna go get me something hot to drink and a good movie!! wooooooh!
Snow is quite the deceiver! It looks all pretty outside the window, from the comfort of a centrally heated town house, but boy oh boy I almost lost my nose to frost bite as I ventured out to dutifully capture quite possibly the last of the winter whiteness on my little digi-cam. The poor thing! Even in the amount of time it takes to take a picture, a layer of snow would gather on top and I'd have to keep blowing it off. I hope my camera won't hold a grudge, I've heard tales of them doing so, but I couldn't resist. I've learned something about myself from this day, I hate hate hate extreme weather! My feet were cold, my nose was cold, my ears were cold, my feet were cold, my my tail was cold (yeeeaaah ok, taking quotes from "101 Dalmations" = a little too much time spent with kiddos, I'm thinking) I don't like being cold and have decided that wherever my home ends up being, it will NOT be in a "wonderous wintry land" as that's an entirely over-rated description in my opinion. I guess I got spoiled having grown up in PERFECT CLIMATE HARARE where it's never too hot, and never too cold. You may need a light sweater in the winter and you'll never use air conditioning in the summer. How pleasant. But yes, as pleasant as it was Zimbabwe did spoil me and spoil me rotten:
1. grew up with servants: never had to clean my room, do the dishes, my laundry, the result: a very undomesticated specimen
2. drugs and alcohol readily available and cheap from a young age, the result: inability to not overspend at a bar :)
3. perfect climate, the result: lack of ability (desire more like) to adapt to imperfect climates.
4. a country with (at the time) little to no crime - the result: I'm possibly a little too overconfident, fearless and daring.
but it's aaaaaaaaall I'm gonna go get me something hot to drink and a good movie!! wooooooh!
Friday, April 08, 2005
my little strawberry, i love you
I told Kristina I was going to be good and go to bed early, but I lied. decided to stay up supah late, as usual, while enjoying some luscious strawberries!! mmmmm... they are particularly red and shiney, very sweet too. what joys. i love you strawberry, you've made me very happy.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
forgive me
cover your eyes!! cover your eyes!! LUCHI MADE ME DO IT I tell you! I couldn't stand by and have half as outstanding a blog as she - yeah I think I went over the top, I usually do that - you know, over compensating and stuff. Well, it's late. Someone be awesome and design me a totally original template so I don't have to degrade to using "power puff girl" wannabes! (but for now I say it's a little bit groovy)
smells like coffee....
Just in case you haven't yet seen this, it's a good laugh.
I would like to have on record my recommendation for John Mayor, Greenday and the dude who sings "I'm not a peeeeeeeeeerfeeeeeeeeeect peeeeeeeeeeerson..." (you know all whiney like he does) to please go drown themselves in some river and to cease the torture they putting me through. thank you and good day.
PS. my blog get's to be the world's best blog today!!! All I have to do is mention 'wigs' and it'll be proclaimed BEST BLOG EVER. WIGS WIGS WIGS WIGS WIGS AHA! How easy that was. (don't mind me here. I'm on an attention-getting spree, cuz I'm just an attention whore! )
I would like to have on record my recommendation for John Mayor, Greenday and the dude who sings "I'm not a peeeeeeeeeerfeeeeeeeeeect peeeeeeeeeeerson..." (you know all whiney like he does) to please go drown themselves in some river and to cease the torture they putting me through. thank you and good day.
PS. my blog get's to be the world's best blog today!!! All I have to do is mention 'wigs' and it'll be proclaimed BEST BLOG EVER. WIGS WIGS WIGS WIGS WIGS AHA! How easy that was. (don't mind me here. I'm on an attention-getting spree, cuz I'm just an attention whore! )
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Where is my mind?
It's hard to imagine that all your time and energy spent on something might have been almost a waste. I just wish I could see OBVIOUS signs to show that not to be the case... but I don't really. M & L + kids have moved out, they moved Friday. She had been doing remarkably better and they seemed happy to be getting out and on with their lives. In any case, it needed to happen so that's not what's terrible. Problem is that they are back on their own and it's looking like things are going back to "the way they've always been" for them.
Ok, so Lea comes over today looking as blue as hell and like she wasn't doing too well. Apparently she hasn't been doing well since the move and it seems to be brought on by the actions of my dearest brother. My bro is just not one to be motivated by another persons needs - don't wanna be too harsh on him really but he's kinda selfish if you ask me. It's frustrating for me to watch as it's almost a sign of extreme ingratitude for all that everyone has done for them, mainly for HIM, in the way that he's kinda letting things unravel in a not so good way (not being the real support that Lea needs other than bringing in the "dough". Well if you can call it that: 6 hours a day, $9 an hour - hmmmm, and the work is not the least bit stressful) Anyway, arrrggghhhhhhh - he's gotta step up to the plate and take control over his family and just TAKE CARE of them! It's up to him, why won't he do it? And then why do I feel it turns into MY responsibility? In my thinking that everything was fine I was ready get back to figuring out my life and getting on with it, but the events I learned about today have made me suddenly uneasy. Let's just say... it's really not over yet! But my opinion of where the problem lies has shifted.
*mental note: don't get married*
It's hard to express this the way I would like to, I hate just bitching and not really making a good point. It's muddled a bit in my head right now as I feel like I've withdrawn emotionally from the "problem area" and I just don't know what to do with myself or what I have to offer anymore. Guess all I can do for now is... pray?
Movie of the day: "Diarios de motocicleta" - Let the world change you... and you can change the world - it inspired me... or maybe he did.
Ok, so Lea comes over today looking as blue as hell and like she wasn't doing too well. Apparently she hasn't been doing well since the move and it seems to be brought on by the actions of my dearest brother. My bro is just not one to be motivated by another persons needs - don't wanna be too harsh on him really but he's kinda selfish if you ask me. It's frustrating for me to watch as it's almost a sign of extreme ingratitude for all that everyone has done for them, mainly for HIM, in the way that he's kinda letting things unravel in a not so good way (not being the real support that Lea needs other than bringing in the "dough". Well if you can call it that: 6 hours a day, $9 an hour - hmmmm, and the work is not the least bit stressful) Anyway, arrrggghhhhhhh - he's gotta step up to the plate and take control over his family and just TAKE CARE of them! It's up to him, why won't he do it? And then why do I feel it turns into MY responsibility? In my thinking that everything was fine I was ready get back to figuring out my life and getting on with it, but the events I learned about today have made me suddenly uneasy. Let's just say... it's really not over yet! But my opinion of where the problem lies has shifted.
*mental note: don't get married*
It's hard to express this the way I would like to, I hate just bitching and not really making a good point. It's muddled a bit in my head right now as I feel like I've withdrawn emotionally from the "problem area" and I just don't know what to do with myself or what I have to offer anymore. Guess all I can do for now is... pray?
Movie of the day: "Diarios de motocicleta" - Let the world change you... and you can change the world - it inspired me... or maybe he did.
Saturday, April 02, 2005
I gotta learn the RULES!!
Well, I had quite the experience last night! It was around 4:30am, I was happy and content sleeping away - mmmmm, nothing quite like sleep. I love it,I love it,I love it! Anyway, I WAS sleeping contently till I was suddenly awaken by the phone ringing. I glanced at the clock, which glared those yellow luminated predawn numbers all too brightly, I groaned, rubbed my eyes and fumbled for the phone. I half expected it to be... somebody, but then reality kicked in, I snapped out of my dream state, when I remembered that... somebody doesn't usually call anymore - oh well, who on earth could this be? (caller ID wasn't giving me any clues either) So I answer and a lady greets me on the other end, though not with a typical "hello" by any means. Instead, I hear "Ok, you're probably going to think this is a dream or that you are going insane - but neither are true. Now listen..."
A chill went up my spine as I envisioned scenes from horror flicks involving telephones and usage of the word "insane". I crept over to the window, parted the blinds no more than a crack and peered down to the street below scanning for a "Scream" character, with boobs! None in sight, I relaxed and let her continue. She started telling me that she was calling from Louisiana and that her fiance was staying here in Denver, for work purposes, in the Aurora area and asked if I had gone out with or met any guys from around there in the past few weeks. See she is an insecure wife to be who got a hold of her man's phone bill and found my number on it - apparently the phone call lasted a whooooole 5 min and when she asked him who it was he apparently shuffled his feet nervously and said "oh some girl asked to borrow my phone", but she wasn't convinced and assumed he must be trying to date me! I was like "whaaaaaaaaaa?? Please explain to me who this person is who has my number on his phone bill!" She didn't want to give me his name right off the bat but she described this fellow and for some reason her discription matched my bartender buddy I have who DOES work in Aurora and who I did "go out" with a few weeks back. I was like, "Holy Crap! Why wouldn't he tell me he was engaged!?!" SO I start trying to explain myself (being TOTALLY honest) "Noo, it's not like that at all! Keith and I are just friends and went out for a drink with a group of friends - I took my car and met them, had a few drinks and went home. It's not what you think at all!" To which she responds "Keith? What are you talking about? I don't know anyone called Keith!" Ehhhehhheheeeehhehehhe... I laughed nervously "OOOOOOPS!" but felt relieved as I didn't feel like going out to find him and smack him for not telling me something as important as that.
Anyway, with this information I returned to puzzled state "A", though now I thought she must be some looney and couldn't for the life of me figure out what was going on, all the while she's begging me to tell HER what's going on. I wreacked my brain as I tried to figure out who this mysterious guy could be, who I could possibly even be dating!! Gasp!! (a bit ironic as I'm currently NOT on the prowl, though at that moment I did secretly wondered if he was cute) She wasn't helping as she sobbed her heart out and pleaded for her and her future husband's ...future. Finally, FIIIIIIINALLY I thought about an incident say three weeks back when I had gone downtown one Saturday night and had forgotten the phone at home. I remember I was freezing and felt like I was getting sick and no one else wanted to go home just then. I was annoyed and walked off to look for a phone so I could get Manny or someone to pick me up. Low and behold there at the bar sat a sad, sorry, though thoroughly good looking fellow. The coast seemed clear, he sat there alone, so I figured he'd lend me his cell phone - it's rare a guy would turn down a damsel in distress and this occasion was no exception. (well, actually not true, I wasn't looking at the coast at all - I just wanted to use his phone, not jump his bones so I wasn't concerned if a girlfriend was around or not! Damn those rules that I still don't know!!!!) In the end I realised the connection and as much as I tried to explain yet again the scenario - she didn't sound too much happier as I had just confirmed 3/10 of her suscpicions, that I had been in within 5 feet of her fiance, IN a bar and on said night! Wow, I think I'm in love or something!!! There wasn't any more to be said so she thanked me for my explanation and finally let me hang up. PHEEEEEW, intense females!! God forbid I should ever be one like that!
How do these things happen to me??
A chill went up my spine as I envisioned scenes from horror flicks involving telephones and usage of the word "insane". I crept over to the window, parted the blinds no more than a crack and peered down to the street below scanning for a "Scream" character, with boobs! None in sight, I relaxed and let her continue. She started telling me that she was calling from Louisiana and that her fiance was staying here in Denver, for work purposes, in the Aurora area and asked if I had gone out with or met any guys from around there in the past few weeks. See she is an insecure wife to be who got a hold of her man's phone bill and found my number on it - apparently the phone call lasted a whooooole 5 min and when she asked him who it was he apparently shuffled his feet nervously and said "oh some girl asked to borrow my phone", but she wasn't convinced and assumed he must be trying to date me! I was like "whaaaaaaaaaa?? Please explain to me who this person is who has my number on his phone bill!" She didn't want to give me his name right off the bat but she described this fellow and for some reason her discription matched my bartender buddy I have who DOES work in Aurora and who I did "go out" with a few weeks back. I was like, "Holy Crap! Why wouldn't he tell me he was engaged!?!" SO I start trying to explain myself (being TOTALLY honest) "Noo, it's not like that at all! Keith and I are just friends and went out for a drink with a group of friends - I took my car and met them, had a few drinks and went home. It's not what you think at all!" To which she responds "Keith? What are you talking about? I don't know anyone called Keith!" Ehhhehhheheeeehhehehhe... I laughed nervously "OOOOOOPS!" but felt relieved as I didn't feel like going out to find him and smack him for not telling me something as important as that.
Anyway, with this information I returned to puzzled state "A", though now I thought she must be some looney and couldn't for the life of me figure out what was going on, all the while she's begging me to tell HER what's going on. I wreacked my brain as I tried to figure out who this mysterious guy could be, who I could possibly even be dating!! Gasp!! (a bit ironic as I'm currently NOT on the prowl, though at that moment I did secretly wondered if he was cute) She wasn't helping as she sobbed her heart out and pleaded for her and her future husband's ...future. Finally, FIIIIIIINALLY I thought about an incident say three weeks back when I had gone downtown one Saturday night and had forgotten the phone at home. I remember I was freezing and felt like I was getting sick and no one else wanted to go home just then. I was annoyed and walked off to look for a phone so I could get Manny or someone to pick me up. Low and behold there at the bar sat a sad, sorry, though thoroughly good looking fellow. The coast seemed clear, he sat there alone, so I figured he'd lend me his cell phone - it's rare a guy would turn down a damsel in distress and this occasion was no exception. (well, actually not true, I wasn't looking at the coast at all - I just wanted to use his phone, not jump his bones so I wasn't concerned if a girlfriend was around or not! Damn those rules that I still don't know!!!!) In the end I realised the connection and as much as I tried to explain yet again the scenario - she didn't sound too much happier as I had just confirmed 3/10 of her suscpicions, that I had been in within 5 feet of her fiance, IN a bar and on said night! Wow, I think I'm in love or something!!! There wasn't any more to be said so she thanked me for my explanation and finally let me hang up. PHEEEEEW, intense females!! God forbid I should ever be one like that!
How do these things happen to me??
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