Saturday, July 15, 2006

Numb

Maybe I'm regressing, one step backwards everyday. In my heart I know something's not quite right, but I don't know if that's my built in fears coming to life. I try to shut my mind and forget, my thoughts, raging are burning in my head. When it all stops for a second... I just feel numb. I don't feel happy, I don't feel sad. My emotions are stagnant. My thoughts... still and quiet. Will it all just fade away?

Unable so lost
I can't find my way
Been searching, but I have never seen
A turning, a turning from deceit

Cos the child roses like
Try to reveal what I could feel

I can't understand myself anymore
But I m still feeling lonely
Feeling so unholy

Cos the child roses like
Try to reveal what I could feel
But this loneliness
It just won't leave me alone

I'm fooling somebody
A faithless path to roam
Deceiving to breath this secretly
This silence, a silence I can't bear

Cos the child roses like
Try to reveal what I could feel
And this loneliness
It just won't leave me alone

--Portishead

2 comments:

mig.moon said...

I don't think you're regressing, not at all. Sometimes it's good to have moments of silence and uncomplication' an absence of strong feelings or emotionally fueled impetuousness... Not to say it is a calm before the storm, but rather, an opportunity to reflect and be thankful for it all. :)

Miss M said...

aish, what wisdom. now let me curl up in a ball and miss you.

<3