You'll never walk alone

When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high And don't be afraid of the dark

At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark

Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Tho' your dreams
Be tossed and blown

Walk on..
Walk on..
With hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone

Remember this song? Haven't heard it in years, but I think it's a beautiful, simple song that is so comforting. I want to dedicate this to a special friend. I know it's not much, but I hope it warms your heart a little.

Super Balls in San Francisco

This falls into the category of 'things you don't see every day.' In order to herald the arrival of the their new Bravia LCD line of televisions, Sony decided to demonstrate their screen color capacity in a unique way. They televised 250,000 multi-colored superballs bouncing down the streets of San Francisco.

This is pretty spectacular and I quite love the song!

HIGH

LOW

Today In History

/sigh... missing you

daaammn, taking the posing a little seriously I'd say! 

red light bulb fun 

Odd shot, taken under the unfluence no less, but I kinda like it 

the rustle of the leaves, the chillness in the air...

You know, there's no point making great claims like "I'm back to stay!" or "I promise to be a faithful blogger!!" cuz it just ain't gonna happen, so y'all are just gonna have to bear with me as I rollercoaster in and outta here.

Oh it's FAAAAAAALL and that means life is happy and cheery. They've set up the outdoor ice-rink downtown which we will be frequenting as soon as we can. Very soon the lights will be up everywhere, I find it amazing how they have a special way of shining even prettier in the crisp cold. I keep hearing about hot cider, what actually is that? It sounds really good and that can only mean we're definitely having some! Oh AND I am totally making PONCHE NAVIDENO, cause that stuff is oh my goodness sooooo frickin' good! Mmmm... just little things to complete the "season to be jolly"... I know, it's usually the season to be stressed and annoyed at the world but you know what?! This year I am actually going to try to enjoy it. But, I am also going to find my enjoyment in the simple things that make this time of year a little bit special. It will be my way of thumbing my nose at the commercialism and silly traditions without all my enjoyment being stolen from me!

Special treat this week.................. photos will be posted in all glory and grandeur, stay tuned.

PS No job yet.

more newness

*Job Interview today - JCrew. Ok yes, it's juuuuust retail but hey you gotta stay afloat! Eeeeek, it's new!! Wondering if I will fit in, but at the same time not caring if I don't - my main concern is that they may want me to wear those clothes... oh help!

*Phone - so you can actually CALL me! w00t! I've been borrowing and just being plain out of touch for so long but glory glory we can start touching again.

*Cold - ok so it's not all that new, but summer is really quite over and I am oh so gonna be enjoying the lovely autumn that is closing in... hmmm... warm cider, mulled wine, pumpkin spice coffee, scarves and mittens, cozing up in a fluffy duvet (something I don't own yet and that fact makes me sad, must save up!!!), soupies of ALL kinds and lots of cuddles.

Went to the city this past weekend as a DJ friend was spinning at a club so we all went to offer support and have ourselves a pretty darn good time. I shall expound later!

Till then........

PRESENTING

just me. I am giving myself a warm welcome (complete with gifts and flowers) for this, my triumphant RE-ENTRY to baring my soul at no one in particular. So, why not picture me lying naked on a bed, with rose pedals strewn over the naughty parts (we can all ponder together what significance that could possibly have to the subject at hand but aaaanyway) Here's to hoping that such fantasies will give you a little bit of an incentive to come again and trust that you just might have something new to read that may make your day or... naaaaw, don't count yourself THAT lucky. Just leave me comments and I promise to think happy thoughts about you.... promise promise!

OK off to the gym for me!

CLICKETY CLICKETY CLICKETY CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK

TURN YOUR VOLUME WAY UP AND CLICK HERE!!

needing some love

...or maybe just some ice cream. But my feet are cold and I HATE it when my feet are cold so ice cream wouldn't help much. I have a headache and I am too lazy to rummage for socks, and I kinda want ice cream but it's cold and the heater is about 10 steps away and my socks at least 20, so that's way too much work. I would rather sit here all on my lonesome and suffer... with cold feet and an achey head. I need someone to take care of me when I am sick, I get so helpless and the world falls apart. Yeah, I need some love. Some cuddles. I have hardly eaten a thing for the past few days so that might be why I feel shitty - I just haven't had the time!! Getting food consists of driving somewhere, first figuring out where I want to eat, then spending too much time not being able to make up my mind about what I want to eat and then I'm like "This is taking too long, I have to be and such and such place" And leave emtpy handed. OR I will just anticipate the long drawn out process of being indecisive and not bother stopping anywhere. The supermarket is hell for me, that's way too much to have to choose from!! Yes, poor wittle Em... a tear for you!

peek-a-boo

ok calm down, it's just me! I know you never expected to see me again since I seemed to have vanished into thin air, but I am here to tell you that YES - you do still have a purpose for living and that purpose is to be dedicated to following my life as it twists and turns, meandering down an unknown path. So let's get back on with it shall we? I get bored of my blog from time to time and I leave it alone for a while, but with out fail so much starts to build up inside my little head that it wants to explode! I know it's hard to take other people's shit sometimes, you don't always know what to say, can you really understand what that person is going through? Will what you say even help? Sometimes you just have to be a listening ear maybe. That's why I have a special place in my heart for my bloggy blog. It doesn't talk back so I feel comfortable loading the crap on good and thick from time to time without fear of giving it more than it can handle. Thanks to everyone who has had to take my unloading when it came pouring forth uncontrollably, sometimes there are no answers to the many many questions, but you'd still gracefully listen even when you had no clue what I was going on about.

But not today! I mean, it's building up there but I'm too crazy busy lately. I'm actually back in Denver for 2 weeks and have been without a computer up until yesterday! Ahhh, it feels good to be connected to the world again! And wireless, but of course And who says people in suburbia don't know their neighbours?!?!?!

"Ohhhh you must be unsecured wireless network ACTIONTEC! Your network lags pretty bad BTW. Oh, we're NETGEAR, from across the street!" ;)

Well I have only 3 days left before I head back out to Sacramento, there are a few of my favourite people there who I can't wait to see again. Time has crawled by and I feel like I have been here at least a month. I suppose that happens when you have some...thing (one) to look forward to seeing and when not even 24 hours went by before you started missing it. Time is cruel that way. NOW HURRY IT UP ALREADY OR I'M GONNA START WALKING!!!!

I have a good action packed drama of what's happened since I have been here to tell when I get some time. It's been fun, boring as hell, mad busy, lonely, pushing away unwanted company, sad, happy, drunk and sober. And every oxymoron you could possibly imagine. Ok I am off to make some money so that I don't continue to be the drag on society that I am... bleh... I wanna be rich so I can pay back everyone for everything they have ever done for me, I don't deserve any of it but I am so super thankful. It would be awesome if a smiles and hugs had monetary value, cuz I have bazillions of those to give.

I miss you.

just blowing in the wind

fly
a
kite...

Why not? I highly recommend you go out right now and buy a kite! A cheap kite, not even a fancy one that does tricks, just a basic kite and fly it! Dunno why, but as simplistic as it may sound apart from it being very relaxing it is also a total blast! That is what we did aaaall Saturday afternoon. The cool breeze blowing, being with people I care about while enjoying a piece of plastic way up in the sky (we had about 650 feet of string so it was a ways up there) - it was great! Imagination is the highest kite that one can fly and a gift that I don't really have, BUT lucky for me I'm with the Mastermind of Activity who has always got something for us to do... even if it is a simple thing like kite flying -we're amused and happy.

Rainy Day anti Boredom Insurance

Here's an amusing activity for when you have waaaay too much time on your hands. Copy and paste this in the comments section and answer all the questions about me you can! Have fun! w00t!

PS. THIS is my lame blog filler, to make it seem like I'm an "active blogger" or some such fiddle faddle.

Your name:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name

How long have you known me:

Do I smoke:

Do I drink:

Do I curse:

Do I believe in God:

Have you had sex with me:
If yes, how was it?
If no, why not... are you free later?

What was your first impression upon meeting me:

Color of my eyes:

What's one of my favorite things to do:

Am I funny:

Do you remember one of the first things I said to you:

What's my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing or what:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

Do I have any special talents:

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

What's your favorite memory of me:

What is my worst habit:

Most Favorite thing about me:

Worst thing about me:

If I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring:

Love Parade 2005

Striking a pose

the familiar 3

squirrel man

dance, dance, dance

little show-er off-er :P

cool reflection in his glasses

Just a passing buttocks.

The LOVE BUS!!

catching some odd angles

bunny love

BOOBIES FOR ALL!!

handy link

For fear of something nasty jumping out of there, they kept their distance!

Stilt Man.

Chillin' after a long day

Altea in her Indian oufit

weeeeee

The Drive Home

Kitty!

How cute is that??? This is Marzipan the awesomest little kitten you have ever seen (don't argue, you know it's true) She is Jason's new baby, they both adoooore each other, sooo cutie! She's the latest n greatest little highlight even though she doesn't let you sleep AT ALL! She'll tug on your ears and paw at you eyes all night long, but she's got that look.... you know the big eyes all innocent? Yep those. She'll steal your heart before you can even think of being annoyed. We loves you Marzipan!

Of mice and men and... mouses and menses

"Where is my mind?" asked the modest mouse pensively. "Why it's way out in the water, see it swimming?'" Was the only response given. It had to do.

la la la la la

frolicking, frolicking

oh! I'm so sorry! Can you not see what this is? Here's a handy link where it shows up more clearly. Sorry about that.

Not enitrely how it seems....

Looks like Kristina's and my life are going to intertwining for a bit here, we're only able to blog about the same things these days. Which is inevitable, unavoidable and perfectly fine by me. And for this reason I must put a disclaimer here. If you do happen to post a comment on either of our blogs in connection to a post we both similarly share I will have to insist on a new rule which states that all comments must be sent to both blogs respectively and simultaneously. :)

;)°¨¨°º"°¨¨°(*)(_.·´¯`·«¤°Love Parade°¤»·´¯`·._)(*)°¨¨°º"°¨¨°;)

Next weekend is love parade weekend, woot! It's so essiting! I have never been to a real parade before and this is totally gonna be a real parade. So on the 23rd we'll be taking the train, a 2 1/2 hour scenic ride, down to the Bay Area, checking into our hotel,grabbing a bite to eat and then scoping out the pre-parties. Supposedly a bunch of us are gonna be down there, but we're all ending up in different hotels so I certainly hope we can coordinate meeting up. But even still, being on your own can be a blast as you don't have to worry so much about things like 'meeting up', people being flakey and failing to communicate, and any number of mishaps that can happen in large groups. We shall seeeeeeee.

Anyway, I NEEEEED HELLLP!!!For serious! This is gonna be a parade and the whole point of going to one of these is to really get into it and participate to the fullest extent possible and what do people do at parades? Weird stuff!! Now I know I am fully capable of being weird and doing something crazy I just have noooo ideas. Does anybody know where to get ideas, that don't cost a Bazillion Dollars, of different crazy outfits and ways to dress up?? Or just ideas from personal experience or things you've always wanted to try but would prefer to see someone else make a fool of themselves first and assess the reaction? Cuz I'm totally up for it. This is very serious and important!! :P NOTE: Only thing I am not up for is actual nudity! Yeah I'm a wuss! haha! BUT! Strategically placed body paint is on the list of possibilities! ;)

So please please pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase. Any and all ideas welcome!

Lady, hear me tonight...

Working it!

The life of the party: Kristina, Tanicia, Moi (discovered Tanicia's bro happens to be the bartender... woooooooh!)

dance, dance, dance

Could I smile any bigger? I look 6

Lovely

inside the club

Disco Dancing baby

In about an hour we are off to Sac Town local hotspot Harlows where Mr Altovideo (our in house progressive/electro house DJ) is gonna rock our booties. We'll dance till our legs are weak and our heads are spun off in different directions! Pictures will be displayed on the morrow.

AND THE WEEKEND BEGINS!

of irreverence and profanation

Today, not only were several Asian languages highly insulted, It was also quite the historic day when The Rude Awakening Movement was formed...here

Thistoo, though older, just cracks me up!

The Beat That My Heart Skipped (De Battre mon coeur s'est arrete)

I'm sorry but that is such a ridiculously impressive name for a movie! and so much so that I am going to go watch it tonight! Yes yes, watching French Films. Sigh, sounds sooo romantic. Haha, helloo it's just gonna be a great movie ...

" Think of film as the quintessential artform of the last century--a medium for expression uniquely suited to our Modernist Yeatsian decomposition, what with its malleability beneath the knife, as it were, cut and spliced back together again as the un-spooling literalization of some patchwork Prometheus. Likewise, in its 24 flickers a second, it's an illusion of life, teased from the amber of still photography, drawing, painting; mixed with symphonies; blended with dance and movement; enslaved to the syncopation of words and imaginary drum beats. It's a miracle, a golem, capable of illuminating the rawest humanity in one stroke and of exhuming the most abject failure of human impulse in the very next."

Well ok fine, going out to watch really good french Films IS pretty romantic

Latest: It wasn't a very well made FRENCH film at all - there was NO nudity or any steamy sex scenes - I dunno, but as far as I know there is no way you can have a French made movie with no nekkidness. Oh well.

PS. I'm kidding, it was really an interesting character study.

That was a little annoying

You can see it here now.

of a pineapple and a coconut. aloha.

First weekend here starts with a bang, woot! My thoughts are, even if everything goes to pot at least I'm gonna have some good times and make some memories - might as well. We went out dancing Friday and Saturday night, movies Saturday and Monday, lazed around all Sunday, barbeque Monday, more lazing around interspersed with watching DVDs, drinking and eating. Oh and for the barbeque we made the BEST Pina Coladas ever! I am not exaggerating, we really went all out and they rawked! We bought a fresh pineapple and coconut, it was all very amusing as half everyone there had never opened or tasted fresh coconut ever. So opening the nut was highly entertaining and even more so when people came out to savour the meat and milk only to discover that on it's own it's really quite gross and tasteless. It was a let down for many and I think their fantasy of being stranded on a desert island, living on coconuts alone, was pretty much shot.

Anyway, as the major ingredient to our never-been-made-before-concoction it added that needed pizazz not found had we only used coconut cream, plus the fresh pineapple and the WHOLE bottle of rum (compliments of our in house alcoholic whose solution to any discrepancies during the mixing was "too sweet? Just add rum! Too much pineapple? Just add rum! Too much rum? ADD MORE RUM!!!" Note: we are trying to find a kind home for him.) Success! The masses heartily agreed, or at least I think they did nodded there heads emitting unmistakable sounds and slurs of satisfaction as they stumbled over for more. The food was great (thanks to my bro who somehow discovered the secret to enlightenment through food! Yes, he's really that good a cook!) the people were fun, and the people were happy.

ya'llz need to be on MSN Messenger so I can talk to ya. get on already!

Technical Bloggingz *snicker*

dere you have it.

Crossing the Rubicon

Flight departs August 31st Denver - Sacramento. With two bags, containing everything in the world I own; excited yet petrified. I am now beginning a journey. Destination: unknown. Nothing is set, nothing is clear, there are no signs that say, "Your life's path - this way." What am I doing?! I don't have a clue. But I must go, must do this, I dare not stop because my curiosity as to where this will take me has peaked and that... THAT makes me clinically insane. God save us all!

Here I am. Alive and kicking and having a righteous good time. I'm worried because I don't think life sucks, but everyone else does. Maybe I'm missing something? I always seem to end up having good times yet pretty much everyone complains about how much their lives suck. I can't actually say mine has ever. There's just so much to do and so much I haven't done that I never feel the opportunity to say 'life sucks'. As soon as it starts to go that route, I seem to turn it around. I don't think anything happens by accident, so it makes me hope that I might be doing something right.

Ok enough on that, I'll be disabling anonymous comments since I'll probably be getting google hits for using that word so much. Or I'll set up the pervert filters, either way.

I find it fascinating to look at the different sequences of events that happen in my life. Those that end up pulling me in such amazingly extreme ways to different parts of the world and into different lives entirely. And it continues to happen. Without fail there is always a person of significant importance to me in the picture who becomes like the wind in my sails. They don't drive me, coerce me or manipulate me they are just... there, which becomes where I want to be till the ship must sail yet again. Bittersweet, undoubtedly it will. It's not that I have string for a backbone or am so incredibly fickle that I end up changing directions simply because I am weak, life is just eager to have me experience it and throws itself at me like a desperate lover. The taste of delicacies not yet savoured captivate my senses.

I've stopped thinking that life is definitive. Things change so much, people change so much, X years from now we may not even recognise each other. Its open-ended, non-deterministic. Our life is what we make of it.