Whatever

The blood of a 1000 wandering vagabonds runs through my veins. I either need a transfusion or to just get used to the fact that I am who I am. 'I am who I am' sounds okay to me I guess. :) Will you ever get used to it? If not, I understand. It will be a fun adventure while it lasts and then life will carry on... and on. It's so exciting for me to face the unknown and drop head first into it. I would never bungee jump in real life, but I think metaphorically speaking I am a thrill seeker with no fear of falling. A strange breed I am, I admit, a little on the weird and eccentric side although not in a blatantly obvious way. You can't really pinpoint what type of person I am. I'm not completely one way or another. I feel different... am I? Does everyone feel disconnected from mankind yet at peace and in harmony with it at the same time? Maybe so. Maybe I don't have this conversation with enough people. Those who appear to "belong" somewhere could also just be faking it too, right? I would really like to know this.

What in this great big world am I looking for? I don't know. I crave intensity, passion; when my heart skips a beat or beats twice as fast. Euphoria, ecstasy - not by drugs. When I am on the path of my own spontaneity and listening carefully to my instinct I can achieve the greatest and best highs unbeatable by any drug. I want to be on the roller coaster of life. The highest, highs and the lowly, lows. Free falling and slowing down just before I think I may die and then all over again.

Umm... I'm happy. That is all. I just want to say to anyone who may read this that really, do what makes you happy. Live your life passionately and to the absolute fullest. Everything that scares you, well just do those things and do everything else too!

It's awesome to be alive don't you think?